when u're gone

when u're gone ..

21th July 2008
did not sleep d whole nite..was completing my assignments ..wanted to sleep after that but cant even sleep for one single min..

22th July 2008
Peter came back..it was suppose to be happy but somethg happen which make me felt numb..after college ..came home to sleep cause was damn tired..after a while my dad came back with my cousin's husband..they were shifting my grandma's dining table into my house..at this very moment i knew somethg is going wrong..my tears kept rolling down..but waited patiently until my dad completed the job and i asked him wad is happening ..he said the doctor said that my grandma mite not go thru tonite..i was damn sad..sitting in the hall keep flashing back on the past ..thinking of the moments when im v her..tears kept rolling down..nothing happen that nite but in my heart i knew somethg is gonna happen tomorrow..

23th July 2008
In the morning ..i went to college for my academic english's presentation..after that i called my dad straight away and asked him how was my grandma ..he told me that grandma had passed away..on that very moment..i knew everythg is changing..i was very upset but not even a drop of tears came out form my eyes..maybe i was too ready to accept this ..my grandma once said that it is not good for a folk to passed away at nite..they believe that after eating 3 meals which is breakfast,lunch and dinner and they leave us this will affect the grandchildren to be poor next time ..i guess this is the main reason why my grandma breath her last breath this morning ..she was using the oxygen tank to help her to expand her life span these few days..my aunt told me that when my grandma passed away ..all the 10 of her children was beside her bed asking her not to worry and asked her to rest in peace..that was very good because on her last breath at least all her children is beside her..before this ..all my relatives came after receiving the news that my grandma was very sick..

24th July 2008
My uncle from England came back..he had to kneel to walk into my grandma's house according to the temple man..he cried very badly because he got not much chance to spend with my grandma..and suddenly my grandma passed away just like dat..

25th July 2008
Funeral day ..of course everyone was very upset ..we'll not be able to see my grandma after this ..but my dad went around and asked us try not to cry on the funeral cause he duwan to let my grandma feel sad..but still many of us cant stand and cried..In the morning ..one of my aunt came and told us that last nite she dreamt about my grandma called her and told her that she's fine and asked us not to worry ..i guess this is wad my grandma wanted to tell us..she want us to be happy and dun worry bout her..after listening to the news..many of us cried cause we felt touched..

26th July 2008
Still flashing back to those moments when my grandma is around..i felt so damn bad cause when she's around..i din make full use of the opportunity to take care of her or even spend time v her when she's just staying not far from my house..but its too late to apologize..when someone is gone its too late to do anythg else..i was so touched when my aunt told us that she dreamt of my grandma called back and told us that she's fine..after death she still care for us..she still find ways to inform us that she's alrite..and i guess she waited patiently form the 22th nite till 23th morning only she leaved us peacefully for the sake of us(grandchildren)'s future..how good and how lucky to get a grandma lidat..but too bad i did not appreciate..