I've so many unspeakable thoughts and feelings within me.

Its ain't secrets, its just hard feelings.

How I wish I've someone to talk to.

How I wish I could read everyone's mind.

So that I wont fall into dilemma again and again.

What is the actual reason why God wants me to be here in this world, I wonder.

To spread His word? To tell of His love? or something more complicated than these?

I've seen uncountable incidents that happened around me that makes afraid of life.

Im afraid of falling into the same situations.

Can someone please lead and guide me through this dilemma?

Its not easy. But I've learn something through all these.

The only person you can trust is yourself and God.

Even if the whole world is against you,

You still have to be strong, and

Not forgetting that He's always there for you,

Whatever happens is by for a reason and

He's the only one who understands it.

Sometimes being alone is not as bad as we thought

Because the person you thought you could trust can be the one that hurt u most.

Have been quite busy lately.Busy on my assignment, due to last min work( since forever), busy on my tuitions and etc etc...I need to take a break. Cant wait to finish my diploma this coming August.Thinking of doesn't need to go to college anymore, doesn't need to do assignment anymore, staying home catching up with all the dramas, sleeping all I want..Woah!! Freedom here I come..

But again, my maid is going back to Indonesia soon after I finish studies, which means I've to do all the housework after she leave. In a sense, its good also, I can take it as an opportunity to go on diet and also I think for now, I prefer to do housework than to go out there and follow what people ask me to do. I've enough of all that crap!

Passed up 1 assignment last 2 days and did the presentation as well. Wasn't really satisfy with it cause I was having tongue tied during the presentation, I dont know why. Whenever Im nervous, I'll be tongue tied! Ah...bless me for the next presentation, Lord God.

Went and watched Twilight Saga - Eclipse. Its a movie to die for! So romantic and sweet .. Omg! If only there is a guy who can be as cool, as sweet and as loving as Edward Cullen. <3<3