THE ROAD LESS TAKEN

How often we must bear the challenges of life;

The endless roller coaster between happiness and sorrow;
The constant ups and downs of daily strife.
And always the question remains .... why?

Life is not an easy road for most;
It twists and turns with many forks in the road,
Although always, and inevitably, we are given a choice ...

Do we turn to the right ... or the left?
Do we take the high road ... or the low road?
Do we take the easy path ... or the difficult one?

Decisions are not easy for those struggling for direction ...
And sometimes the many choices and signs become overwhelming.

While standing at a crossroads in life,
The urge is to take the most comfortable path;
The road with least resistance ...
The shortest or most traveled route.

And yet, if we've been down that comfortable road before;
Have gleaned its lessons in life, and learned from our experiences;

Do we yet again follow the known?
Or does our destiny lie in another direction?

The fear of the road less traveled is tangible and all too real;
It manifests itself in many ways,
And tends to cloud the issues that might otherwise be clear.

It is in these times of confusion,
That we must seek peace and solitude;

Time to contemplate on our life,
Our experiences and our choices past;
Time to look back, and reflect on what we have learned
Without fear or confusion.

For only each of us knows our own personal thoughts;
Our unique past and personal history;
The experiences that brought us to the crossroads we now face.

We can always learn a small degree from others experiences,
And yet ... no one person can walk in our shoes,
Others know not, the trials and tribulations faced in private ...

For each is individual ... unique ... and personal.

And that is why ... while standing at a crossroads,
Only "we" can formulate the decision for ourselves;
The true direction that lies within;
The choices we must deliberate on with clarity and wisdom.

For it is only through personal reflection,
That we can now choose our destiny;
... Our next adventure;
... And the future we will embrace.

I've so many unspeakable thoughts and feelings within me.

Its ain't secrets, its just hard feelings.

How I wish I've someone to talk to.

How I wish I could read everyone's mind.

So that I wont fall into dilemma again and again.

What is the actual reason why God wants me to be here in this world, I wonder.

To spread His word? To tell of His love? or something more complicated than these?

I've seen uncountable incidents that happened around me that makes afraid of life.

Im afraid of falling into the same situations.

Can someone please lead and guide me through this dilemma?

Its not easy. But I've learn something through all these.

The only person you can trust is yourself and God.

Even if the whole world is against you,

You still have to be strong, and

Not forgetting that He's always there for you,

Whatever happens is by for a reason and

He's the only one who understands it.

Sometimes being alone is not as bad as we thought

Because the person you thought you could trust can be the one that hurt u most.

Have been quite busy lately.Busy on my assignment, due to last min work( since forever), busy on my tuitions and etc etc...I need to take a break. Cant wait to finish my diploma this coming August.Thinking of doesn't need to go to college anymore, doesn't need to do assignment anymore, staying home catching up with all the dramas, sleeping all I want..Woah!! Freedom here I come..

But again, my maid is going back to Indonesia soon after I finish studies, which means I've to do all the housework after she leave. In a sense, its good also, I can take it as an opportunity to go on diet and also I think for now, I prefer to do housework than to go out there and follow what people ask me to do. I've enough of all that crap!

Passed up 1 assignment last 2 days and did the presentation as well. Wasn't really satisfy with it cause I was having tongue tied during the presentation, I dont know why. Whenever Im nervous, I'll be tongue tied! Ah...bless me for the next presentation, Lord God.

Went and watched Twilight Saga - Eclipse. Its a movie to die for! So romantic and sweet .. Omg! If only there is a guy who can be as cool, as sweet and as loving as Edward Cullen. <3<3

Once a friend always a friend!

To my besties Sin Lan

Even though Im kinda disappointed that we actually lost touch for quite some time but after talking to you the other day, I felt much relieved. I don't care what had happened, all I want is to be like last time again. We were so close until we made each other's house like our own. We always spent nights together to chit chat and have fun. Until u told me that Chong is coming to Kuantan to help out in ur dad's company. Somehow I knew that our friendship is going to be affected and true enough, my thought strikes!

It has been months or almost a year since we last slept over. I cant remember. Too many things had happened. You and I have our own problem to tackle on. GiGi has a bf already and she's busy with her life too. Further more, we're not studying together already, so we have lesser time to spent for each other. I remembered the last time the 3 of us came out for a drink and you started to tell us bout ur problem and we started arguing. We just don't understand each other like last time anymore. Im sorry for that!!

Now that you're having problem with Chong, I hope that you can cope with it well. Don't let obstacles to stand in ur way, I hope life will treats you well. Just do whatever you think its right. Do not care what people say about you. You know everything about yourself more than any other do. You can always fall back to ur family and ur friends. We are always here for you.

From what I read in ur blog. Do u think that ur taking control over him? Sometimes, u might think that all u do for him is for his own good but u will never know what he thinks and perhaps u have over do it and he thinks that its a burden cause at times he wants it his way. Every individual should have the freedom to choose upon the things they want and every individual have their very own character and attitudes that makes them unique and different. So sometimes you should discuss with him before you make a decision. Let him choose the way he wants to lead his life and if whatever happens, he can't put the blame on you. And as for you, if u think that u want to study abroad to continue with ur studies and if ur parents are okay with it then go ahead. But dont do it because you want to let run away from ur problems as it will only make things worse.Think wisely.

Bittersweet memories we had in our past and I promise we will go through it together always and forever till the end. And I wish to you joy and happiness. May God shower you with His abundant blessings and love. Loves and Hugs dear! Take care and Im looking forward into the next sleep over after so long. Xoxo.

Suddenly this thing came into my mind. I would like to thank my Heavenly Father for granting me such a great life with loving family members and relatives, caring friends and also protecting and guiding me throughout all these years. And also thanks to my earthly father, who never failed to be there to support me during all my competitions and performance. And he's the only Mathematics teacher who can make me understand Maths better. Last but not least, I would like to thank my late god father who takes care of me since I was young and taught me a lot of principle in life. I still couldn't believe that you're no longer here anymore but to me and the rest of the family members, you're always in our heart and we miss u a lot! Happy Belated Father's Day! I Love You!

Perhaps we'll never understand each other.
Loving doesn't mean that we agree.
If that were so, then I would say, why bother?
But there are things I know I'll never see.
I'm sure your heart knows what I don't yet know:
The pain of loving a reluctant son;
The anger, coming fast and building slow,
Of being helpless to control someone.
You want only that I grow up right,
But you know what right is, and I still don't.
I have to learn to wield my inner light,
And if I follow yours, well, then I won't.
I'm sorry for the anger in the air;
Though we fight, my love is always there.

Just came back from Cameron Highlands yesterday.

It was indeed a great trip!

Most of all, I love the cooling weather there.

The plantations, flowers, vegetables and fruits are all so pretty and fresh!

Ate lots of sweet corn there, love em' all.

The strawberries are kinda sour but someone told me if its not sour den its not called Strawberry!

But still, I love to eat strawberry. They have really awesome strawberry ice cream, strawberry waffles, strawberry milk shake, strawberry with whipped cream and A LOT MORE!

I would like to thank God for this camp, without this camp, I dont know when in my life will I have this opportunity to go to Cameron and not only the place, the bond between my church members and I are much better now! Love u guys! Stay tune for the photos as I have to upload all the pics!

Xoxo

Alice

Cameron Cameron Here I Come!!

Will Be Off For Holidays For 4Days and 3Nights!

Stay Tune for the Preety Pics!

I Love The Nature!

Therefore, I <3>

Wonder!

Beautiful beach, pretty scenery, meaningful songs, lovely sea breeze and sound of the waves gives me the strength to think better

Are you worth the waiting??

Smile like a dumb dumb, smile like a maniac, smile like never before.

=)

Its has been more den a month since I last updated my blog. Time flies super fast when everyone is busy with their own life. So many things to update this time around but Im too lazy to rewind my mind and blog it out.

In the last post, I've mentioned that I'll be going to Kemaman for curry mee. Well, the curry mee was yummy I must say. Oh well, perhaps, I should put my trust on Chin Yang on food. I've gone there twice. Apparently, the nasi lemak is good too but I haven't try it yet. Must give it a try the next round I go.

Was kinda busy with my church Jumble Sales preparation and also my college Charity Garage Sales. My church one is over now left with my college's one. It will be held in East Coast Mall on the 26th June. We're selling second hand products like clothes, house decorations, toys and etc. Not too sure about the outcome for my church's jumble sales cause I wasn't there to help on that day due to my cousin's wedding. The wedding dinner was good, the dishes were quite special, so much to eat and the best part is we all enjoyed the time spent together. This time around most of my relatives came back except for a few of them. Looking forward for another cousin's wedding on Dec. Really hope everyone will put in their effort to be present for that dinner.

Wasn't in a good mood today!! Real bad!! How I hope to have someone to talk to but everyone is so busy with their work and Im so used to keep it to myself already. Actually life has been good to me, its just tat with my discontented attitude, I want things to be in my way, I want things that is hard to get, I want things that is impossible to be possible, I want life to be the way I prefer. Yes, I know I should be thankful.

Im looking forward into the month of August where I will be completing my diploma. Pray hard that everything will go on smoothly and NO FAIL!!! Cant wait to ciao from this college. I must say that Olympia is a good college where u have nice buddies and also cool lecturers but I want to go out and explore and try all on my own. I want to see where is my level without a lot of spoon feeding. I've just got my results for last semester. 3As 1B..But my parents dun seems to be happy bout it, they said the lecturers are not strict in marking. =.="

Am going to Cameron on the 17th to 20th. Its my church family camp. Hopefully I'll enjoy myself there staying away from the hustle bustle of the the town and also put my mind off the things that Im not supposed think..It has been so long but I still cant take my mind out of it..How long more should I stay like this? How much more time should I spend in this broken heart? I wonder.....

Love is gone and my heart is a bird,

that has lost direction mid-flight.

Blogging seems to be not so interesting for me anymore..no inspiration again + laziness..

Im on my sem break now..supposed to go to Kl and den to Genting with the girls but unfortunately Mean's Perhentian trip clashes with ours.. so we'd decided to go some other time..

Have been quite hooked up with Chin Yang and Xin Yang and their activities..We'll just agree to go to a place and there we go..example, few days ago, we agreed to go for a jog in the morning den to Hoi Yin for breakfast..ended up, we went to Pelindung for mountain climbing den breakfast, went home took a quick bath den to ECM for Iron Man2 den swimming..we were all exhausted after that..but we did not stop there..we continued to go out almost everyday..

Mountain climbing is so not my type of sports..but I was forced to go..How suffering..I could not even take a break when Im almost fainting..they thought Im just giving excuses due to my laziness..and Iron Man2 is not as good as the first one..I still prefer Ip Man..both 1 and 2..its fantastic..Donnie Yen is so man and so cool..I heart him so so much..after watching that movie, makes me feel like learning Kung Fu and today I'd read an article in the newspaper saying that this malay man has been practicing Wing Chun Kung Fu for years, this makes me thinks that I've chance to pursue this dream of mine and the best part is they're teaching it in Kuantan..What in the world?? I like Judo too but my mum doesnt let me to take part in that cause she thinks that its too dangerous..I've been asking her for permission since so long ago and now I've gave up totally in asking her..But this movie had inspired me to take up art of self- defence again..

Went for badminton this morning but we ciao half an hour earlier due to Chin Yang's stomachache den went Bak Kut Teh for breakfast..After that we thought we should go to Gambang Water Park to take a look..and so we headed home pack our stuff and there we go..nothing much to play actually, not really fun but the good part is we get to spend time together rather den staying home like a dungu..

Tomoro morning we're heading to Kemaman for Curry Mee, Chin Yang said we've no idea how nice the Curry Mee is..Im waiting and Im feeling hungry now ady..We'll be leaving about 6.45 in the morning..so, its time for bed..Oh God..Please grant me good dreams..Nitex..

Xoxo

Alice

26/4/2010

When u're in the exam hall totally blank and having to know that time is still passing second by second, thats the time when you can feel that you're being dragged to hell and that feeling is so horrible. This is what happened to me during my exam this time. This is one of the toughest exam I've sat for. There is one more paper to come tomoro. Cant wait for exam to be over and the girls vacation that I've been longing for. But before that, I better kao time my exam first. it really makes me think twice whether I should continue with my degree? Its just diploma and Im complaining all the way. Well, some said diploma is much tougher den degree because all the subjects are cramp together and u have to complete it in like 2 years? But no matter what, I know that degree is a must and I will be look down if I were to stop studying after diploma. And everyone knows that diploma is nothing now, at least you must have a degree in order to get a stable job. I dont want to be a street cleaner or toilet cleaner when my BFFs are a successful fashion designer, pharmacies, musician and bio engineering.

I had a really bad day today. I met with an accident. Minor to me but major to my parents. Good thing, no one was hurt in the accident except for my dad's wallet and car. I wasn't in a good mood today due to a weird dream I had this morning. I cant stop thinking bout wad I dreamt. I dreamt that my mum's going to get married with another man on this coming 8/8/2010. Seriously WTF. And I heard ppl around me saying if u dream that someone is getting married which means something bad is going to happen some said its good due to their own cultural believe But I've chose to trust in my own believe that dream is dream. Even though most of the time I'll be spending my time arguing with my mum but in heart I love her so much. I do not want something bad to happen to her, I would rather take all the bad thg that is going to happen to her. And these few days, she has been so understanding and polite like as if she try hard to understand my situation and feel from my position. Was touched by her understanding.

But I've disappoint her and my dad with that accident today. I swear I wasn't driving fast. I was at the traffic light and when it green I drove like normal and when I noticed that the gap between my car and the car in front are quite close (50m) I stepped maximum on the break but it glided as if I wasn't stepping on the break and there goes, BANG !! and another time BANG!! I duno wad happened, I couldn't remember clearly, all I know its raining and I'd stepped on the break but still I banged someone's car. And believe it or not, the car I bang (kancil) wasn't badly damaged but my car (waja) damaged like anything. I need to fix the whole front bumper, the lights, the radiator and duno wad else. It cost more den Rm5000 to fix my dad's car and also the guys car. Sigh. Din really get scolding by my parents, but from their faces, the disappointment are far beyond my imagination. My dad said, the money is not a problem but the headache and trouble I gave to him. But he said I tax him like mad. LOLS. I guess after this, I wont be able to drive around town for quite sometime. Wad a day. Memorable yet Tiring.

But let bygone be bygone and now all I want is to gain back my parents trust and be good to them. We all do not know wad will happen tomoro.

Xoxo

Thanks for talking to me and taking away my confusion..

Actually before this I was quite sure with what I really wanted just that Im a lil confused at times..

You're too good at times and I got confused whether I treat you as a fren or more than that..

But after the good talk with you Im very clear that I treat you only as a fren but I like him more than a fren..

And I will still keep waiting even its for a long time..I do not mind..

I will continue waiting until the chance come..Even if its a hundred years..

Even if I can only be with him for a while, I will be more than happy..

Unless, someone like him or someone better than him appear than I will consider of letting go..

This would be a short update as I've got no inspiration to blog lately..

Today is the first day of finals and I screwed on my first day..wtf..its so tough, this is the subject that I love the most for this semester but it killed me slowly when I was in the examination hall..I cant imagine the rest of the subjects that Im going to sit for..I've been revising the same book everyday..Sort of a big achievement I guess..FACEBOOK..Most of the people is so hooked on to Facebook these days, I've got no idea what's so great bout it but I just cant help it, I couldn't resist it..Whenever I come online the first site I'll log into is Facebook..Its like my fingers are set to type this site the first when I come online..wtf..

"Girls vacation" coming up after finals..I guess we're all looking forward into it rite girls? This would be a holiday to Genting for the 4 of us besties..We've not all meet up for like so like ages..not even Chinese New Year..and the 5 of us will never have the chance to hang out together..Why why why..you must be wandering whose the 5 of us..Here goes the 5 of us..I just hope that we'll have the chance to gather together for at least once next time..and I hope this vacation will be a really memorable and enjoyable one..girls, cant wait to see u all..<3<3

Nicole the Wai Sek (greedy) Nic

Alice the Dun (slow) Lice

Joanne the Dai Sieng (noisy) Aw

Matilda the Mong Tong (blur) Dar

Boon Mean the Dai Bi (ratarded) Mean

Hahaha..this is all the nicknames we gave each other when we were in high school..LOL..

Reali dunno wad to blog d ..

Xoxo Girls

Take care and Love u girls a lot

Mwwwaaahhhh

Unpredictable Me

The personal message ITS FADING, DIMINISHING AND DISAPPEARING..its faking actually, not fading..it was almost fading last few days but it came back again..How I wish human actually can pay for their emo feelings to go for a forever vacation and never come back again..Yes, Im talking about FEELINGSSSS...(nonsense)..Im sure I will get over it..REAL SOOOOONNNN...

I dreamt about u again last nite..and this is how the emo came back again..And why cant we just stay in the dream forever..If it is impossible for us to be together, I would rather be in the dream forever and never get up..How nice isn't?

Its April Fool, the normal Alice will be hyped up and prank everyone that could be pranked..but the abnormal Alice this year is just so different..I've got no mood to fool anyone..I only fooled a best fren of mine..and tat was also one of the reason why Im all moody again ="((( ..

Not in the good mood for blogging and Im heading to the bed soon..Nitexx..

p/s

Jojo, Nic, Dar and Mean, I miss u girls a lot <3<3

Xoxo

Charity for the dead..

As most of the chinese will know, now its the Ching Meng festival where the undead will go to the grave to do prayers for their dead family members. There are many ways to do it actually, some will bring along a big roasted pig, chicken, duck, kuih, drinks and stuff, some just bring along some fruits, kuih and drinks too pray. Some of them who had already converted to be a Christian, they will only bring a bouquet of flowers to pay their respect.

This time around, Im the only cousin who went. The rest of them are busy with their work and some are far away from home. But as usual, I will only stand and see, or if possible, sweep the dried leaves away. As usual, we will go to both my grandmother and grandfather's grave at the same day. So, we headed to grandpa's grave first and when we arrived, I felt something wrong. As we all noe, the picture of the dead will be put on the tomb stone. This time, the picture is gone and all I noe is my grandpa's grave had move further in d, but how?

I asked my uncles to check whether its the right grave..den my aunty came and said, "correct la, we came ever year wad, maybe some ppl came and took out the picture d". Well, okay of the picture is gone but how the grave can go so further in? So my uncle started to cut the wild grass and my aunty started to take out the stuff for prayers. But, I still thought that its weird because the chinese words written on the tomb stone is from the Yong Family but my grandpa's surname is Lee and so I decided to take a walk to another grave to check and see. True enough, they went to clean the wrong grave. I started laughing like a mad fella and ppl around us must be thinking that we're some maniac.

One of my uncle said, luckily the family member of the dead person did not come at the same time, or else we'll fight to clean the grave, and surely buat malu jer. And another one of my aunty told, no harm doing charity for the others ma. HAHAHA..Dumb dumb..first time ever, damn silly. Should have see the number on the tomb den buy number, manatau, I can get rich from this incident kan? sigh, wasted..LOLS..

Another joke of the day ..

Xoxo

JATUH DITIMPA TANGGA

Joke of the day

Today in college, when I was waiting for my frens to get ready for lunch..

All of a sudden feel like doing something stupid that could take my boredom away..

So coincidently, I pass by this class where I saw the gay was in there with a few girls..Well, so I decided to knock the door and distract them and make them find out who is the one who is knocking the door cause Im sure they wont think is me..cause Im not even close to them..I hardly talk to them..I just dunno why I wanna make fun of the..

So, one of my fren and I gang up play..

I knocked once and den sat on the sofa next to the class..No one came out..so I peeped into the class, they were talking like normal as tho they din hear anything..

So, knock, knock, knock again..den sat on the sofa again..this time, waited for a few seconds and they still din come and open the door..but duno why this feeling of mine was telling me that they're walking out, so me and my fren ran all the way to the staircase..

And just before I could turn and run out from that door to the staircase, my leg tersangkut at the door and i fell in front and bang my head on the wall..Ouchhhhhhhh...

As usual when something embarassing happened, I will sit on the floor and laugh..

I turn to my left, saw my lecturer and one of my fren was in big shocked for a moment den started laughing .. turn to my right, saw 6 to 7 SPM leavers was going up to the library, stopped and stared at me..turn to the back to looked into the lab, luckily, no one saw..oh how embarassed..My college was having this open day for SPM school leavers to register..or else there wont be so many students in my college normally..

Well, I was lucky enough for not banging the flower pot instead as the flower pot is squarish and made of wood, if I were to bang my head on the angle of the flower pot..habis la ..but the worse part is, after knocking twice on the classroom's door and expect the gay to come out..and even after banging my head on the wall, he did not even peep and see wad's happening.. wtf..Wasted ny effort ..its fine if I banged my head and he came out to see..at least its worth the banging.. I dont even noe why m I doing this, Im not even close to him nor the girls..I just wanna make fun of them..feeling stupid now..and they're my juniors..perhaps, its good that they din come out and see, or else, they'll be thinking wad a sakai senior..HAHAHA..I named this post JATUH DITIMPA TANGGA because memang jatuh den nampak tangga.. amat tepat sekali..

Anyhow, I still think its worth banging after all cause I kept on flashing back on the way I fell and was so busy laughing even until now, come to think of it, I can still laugh..This is one good thing as I could take away the upset feeling in me like as tho I've a short term memory lost symptom..

Even if I could stop thinking bout it for one day..Im happy enough..I would like to thank to all my great friends who never fail to make me smile in times of sorrow and also u guys have been so supportive ..heart u guys a lot..

Well, perhaps this is life. Life is aint a bed of roses rite?? But with great friends around..Who cares whether its a bed of roses or its a pale of shit?

Xoxo

=)

Life is always unexpected

Had a busy yet interesting weekend, memorable and unexpected one too..

Was busy for the whole past Friday, went to the beach in the morning to chill and McD for breakfast, went with a few course mates, basically it was to used up the free McD vouchers and also we were busy rushing up our assignments, so it is time to stretch and relax..We sat there and chit chat for a few hours until we were all sweating, expecting the sea breeze to blow and wanted to take in some cool breeze but ended up =.="..as u know the weather is steaming hot these days..

After beach, headed to the mall to get stuff for the next day’s one day trip..Went to the book fair to read some books while waiting for the others to arrived. Luckily I went, bought all four Twilight’s novels and I hope I will really make good use of it.. hope they will be passed on to the next generations as I think those are really good books that should be shared..HAHAHA..thinking too far away..Spend almost one and a half hour in the book fair .

Second day, which is a Saturday, it’s a long long day. Was hoping for a bright and sunny day as there are events going on in the noon and evening. In the noon my favorite student’s parents had invited me for their thanks giving party for their new born baby, there were 3 babies and all 3 of them are damn damn cute and the food there are awesome. Headed to church after that as it was Elizabeth, my church member’s BIG DAY (wedding).. They looked so pretty and macho in their wedding attire walking on the aisle to the alter and exchanged their wedding vows and rings. How romantic.

After the wedding, went home prepared and off to Cherating. The trip was awesome and we all had fun. Nothing much to update bout this trip, it was basically Mr Foo is leaving to KL soon, so yeah, this is sort of a farewell trip instead of farewell party. Went to Gambang Waterpark the next day with family, did not play in the waterpark as we went there kinda late so I spend time sleeping in the room as I was effing tired.

Came back and the next day college started. Have to handle those kids again, hate this job. But I love kids =)., forgot the to bring my phone out came back read a msg that pierced right into my heart, I dunno why..maybe u’re once so dear to me..and now, u’re still very dear, but too bad..u’ve already taken by someone..well, its fated as I think we are nt meant to be together, even if we were to be together, surely there’s a lot of objection from our parents and religion. And so, here, I wish u all the best ..

Im not so upset over this prob but Im still not over with that problem that I’ve been going thru yet..Im still crazy over you and yes, Im still waiting unless someone can brainwash me and make me back to normal again.. someone, please help me !!

Well, I hope that I’ll be hardworking enough to upload those photos I’ve taken previously to make a clearer picture of wad Im crapping above.. For now, I’ve no more crap to crap bout, so…..

Xoxo

=)

Longest Dream

2 more assignments to go den i'll be free..

Cant wait for it to be done..Anyhow, after tomorrow Im gonna enjoy and take my time to complete the next assignment as the next due date will only be next Fri.. so why rush?

And as for now, Im heading to bed soon, thats the most important thing I wanna do..

Im so tired of doing assignment, Im tired of preparing slides for presentation, Im tired of going to class..Im tired of teaching the kids, Im tired of giving tuitions and most of all Im tired of myself, I lost myself, Im not the Alice that I used to be anymore, Im feeling depressed and lost, when and how can I get out of this wonderland?

Xoxo

Im so not happy now..moody again..really duno why this mood loves to haunt me..

Was quite happy the whole day, except the fact i went to SMKTC to promote my college since SPM results was out today..Was like a dungu waiting for the students to come and take a copy of brochure..so, ended up, distributed it to them, if they wan they will come, dun need to tell them anything..its a waste of time..

Talking about SPM..Congrats to my couz who got straight A1..and she was declared as the top student too..damn genius if were to compared to me..Hahaha.. i screwed my studies when i was in high sch but one thing good, im trying hard to get good grades in college now..At least, i insaf- ed and achieved something now..dun feel tat bad anymore..

My dad brought me some brochures bout studying in Taiwan yesterday. He said if im interesred den go ahead or Switzerland is the another alternatives. But still at times, I really dunno where my life going to lead me to..Wad's my plans after this? M i supposed to continue with my degree? Where m i going to take my degree? Should i consider culinary arts since this is my interest? So many thoughts running thru my head..Oh God, please show me a way, u noe the best for me Im sure, i surrender all my decisions to You.

Reali cant continue to blog, dun have the mood to do this, Im hungry, angry and sleepy..

Xoxo

- Alice in the wonderland -

Im feeling so fucked up now..

So many assignments yet to be done..

Im having fever, flu and cough started from a minor sore throat..that make me lazy to continue working on my assignments..

Sneezing a million times, if its a normal day without sickness, I would take it as someone's missing me =)

Im still not over YOU yet..

At times, Im still dwelling in the past and play back those history..

In heart I noe it well that it brings nothing good by doing this but to suffer again and again..

Anyhow, sickness need time to be heal rite? So do heartache?

But I noe I will be fine very very soon cause no matter how, I need to let go and move on..

So, wish me well..wake up wake up, wake up from the past Alice..

I guess my mum's rite, Im good in wondering, so I should be called Alice in the wonderland..

Xoxo.

Felt better after telling u bout my feelings for u..

Even we cant be together but Im still feeling good as if a heavy load of burdens have flew out from my inner self..

I felt much relieved and cheerful now..

The result is sort of expected..

The end result isn't important to me..I just wan to make it clear and hide nothing from u..

I dun care wadever u tink bout me, I just wanna be FREE..

Xoxo,

Alice

黃小琥 沒那麼簡單

詞:姚若龍 曲:蕭煌奇

沒那麼簡單

就能找到

聊得來的伴

尤其是在

看過了那麼多的背叛

總是不安

只好強悍

誰謀殺了我的浪漫

沒那麼簡單

就能去愛

別的全不看

變得實際

也許好也許壞各一半

不愛孤單

一久也習慣

不用擔心誰

也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西

感覺累了就放空自己

別人說得話 隨便聽一聽

自己做決定

不想擁有太多情緒

一杯紅酒配電影

在週末晚上

關上了手機

舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易

每個人有他的脾氣

過了愛作夢的年紀

轟轟烈烈不如平靜

幸福沒有那麼容易

才會特別讓人著迷

什麼都不懂的年紀

曾經最掏心

所以最開心 曾經

沒那麼簡單 就能去愛 別的全不看

變得實際 也許好也許壞各一半

不愛孤單 一久也習慣

不用擔心誰 也不用被誰管

感覺快樂就忙東忙西

感覺累了就放空自己

別人說得話

隨便聽一聽

自己做決定

不想擁有太多情緒

一杯紅酒配電影

在週末晚上

關上了手機

舒服窩在沙發裡

相愛沒有那麼容易

每個人有他的脾氣

過了愛作夢的年紀

轟轟烈烈不如平靜

幸福沒那麼容易

才會特別讓人著迷

什麼都不懂的年紀

曾經最掏心

所以最開心 曾經

相愛沒有那麼容易

每個人有他的脾氣過了愛作夢的年紀

轟轟烈烈不如平靜

幸福沒那麼容易

才會特別讓人著迷

什麼都不懂的年紀

曾經最掏心

所以最開心 曾經

想念最傷心

但卻最動心 的記憶

Update ..

I promises to upload all the picturews after the Kl trip and also the CNY pictures.

Im kinda lazy to do so but since doing assignment is even worse den blogging so why not just blog?

Kl trip was reali fantastic as Nic was around and we reali spent all the precious time shopping and having fun. Why not just let the pictures do the talking?

On the first day, we went for Summer for steamboat, I went there once before and I still like it very much. Some ppl said tat Yuen is much nicer but I haven't got the chance to try it yet. I did not take any pics during steamboat as I was very greedy eating like a barbarian like as if i hadn't eaten for a few years. But lucky thing Matilda brought her special camera and took a few nice pic of us all. Dar, do tag me after u upload it k. Will appreciate it a lot. And do remember to add in tat small fart in tat pic to make her happy. ( i hope u could still remember wad we've discuss on tat night)

This was when we went for Shogun Japanese Buffet..To me it wasn't reali nice, it was just okay, perhaps, i wasn't in the mood for sushi on tat particular day or maybe it was because there were too many varieties until I duno which to eat.

Nic took 2 plates of sushi thought tat we would be very happy eating em but we disappoint her, we wasnt in the mood for sushi and she ended up eating almost all of it until i stopped her. She was afraid tat she will need to pay for the wastage. LOLS.

After sushi we went for dessert at SS2, I love the Durian Cream the most. It was reali reali nice. I love fresh cream, Yum Yum Yum!!

And also not forgetting the Dim Sum we eat on the very last day, wanted to take pictures too but failed again due to our greediness. But we managed to take some of it. HAHAHA.

This was when we were rushing to get onto the LRT to Pekeliling. It was sort of late and I was so afraid tat I won't be able to catch the bus and the LRT took some time to arrived. I was even nervous. Can u see it by my fake smile?

Kl trip was so nice and Nic promised to come back earlier this year so tat we could spend more time together. But who noes wad will happen next, so just let this memories and frenship remain forever.

Coming up next, I would like to thank my cousin, May for bringin back these Yummy cookies for me all the way from Scotland. But this time, its not oni Yummy cookies, mouth watering lamb casserole as well and some chocolates. But chocolates was mainly for my siblings. Anyway, I prefer lamb. How sweet and understanding. Love u couz. This couz of mine is reali nice all the time and not forgetting my other couz which gave me big angpao for my birthday and also brought me shopping in Bangsar when I was in Kl and I could still remember the way she screwed the gay ass when he spoked to my couz so annoyingly with his wanna be accent. And I would also like to thank my cousin bro for buying me Crocs sandals. Thx, I never like Crocs like how I like this pair of sandals.

This is the lamb casserole I was saying.

I havent tried this yet but normally Dean's are nt bad.

This Butterscotch Crunch Cookies is reali fantastic. Loves!!

Here comes the CNY pic, the food, friends, relatives and etc.

This is pork with sea cucumber and mushroom if im nt mistaken. Yummm...

Secret recipe of my grandma..regretted for not learning from her last time.

Dragon fruit and passion fruit, planted by my uncle.

First day of Cny, my family and I went to Pekan to my aunt's hse. Just like every other year, she'll cooked plenty of food and all the relatives will go and makan. Her food is always superb. While waiting for my turn to eat, took some random pics.

Antique iron and telephone.

Tadaaa...the food...it all looked simple but trust me its reali superb plus the cili padi she planted, syokalingam !!

This fried fish with plenty of fried ginger and garlic.

My all time favourite, Fatt Choi, my couz said if u dun shave, this is wad u will get. Lmao. And the mushroom, u must must must eat it when its real hot with cili padi.

One of my far far relative..cute kan? He was posing with his toy guitar and standing so innocently asking us to see, after seeing him, we asked him to sit and he die die still standing there, at last, he said "take a pic for me plz" ..damn cute..

This is not even a quarter of my maternal- side relatives. Imagine how big it will be if all of us turn up.

Second day iof Cny, at grandpa's hse. Yee Sand made by my aunt. I dun fansy Yee Sang but this is reali nice with the salmon and Sai Tou fish.

Home made Passion fruit juice.

Pork with yam.

Lou ah lou ah lou ah!!! huat ahhh!!!

Fourth day of Cny..decided to bring my kai zai for an outing as I promised them to bring them to my hse. Ended up in Mcd. one of them brought his sis. I ordered burger for em all. But ended up non of them wan to eat. But this time it wasnt tat bad, I do not need to swallow the food by myself like wad I did when I brought them to KFC few months back. This time, I packed home. And I thanked Jo and Yuan Ting for companying me on tat morning or else, Im dead.

After the beach, brought them back to my home, let them play at the playground for a jiffy den sent Xiang Yong to meet up with my aunt whose going back to Singapore.

Wanted to send the kids home den one of them said "kan kata nak bawa pergi tgk Dinasour?" Opps, I almost forgot. I'd better keep my words or else they wont count on me the next time.

On the sixth day of CNY, went to Mentakab with Lau. He asked me to follow him since few weeks before CNy but I couldn't make up my mind. But since so many of them has gone back for studies, so I came with him and I never regretted following. Met up with my camp fren. So happy to see them again. Thanks for bringing me around people.

On the eighth day, went to Sendo- Noya with a bunch of frens.

Conclusion, I enjoyed my CNY a lot. But Im sure it will be much more fun by having Nic, Mean and Dar around. I hope next year's one will be a better one but sadly Jo will nt be around during tat time. Girls, why nt we just plan a trip to somewhere? Thanks for making all my days so colourful. Im sure I've put on weight during CNY, so I need to swim swim swim.

Xoxo,

Alice