26/4/2010

When u're in the exam hall totally blank and having to know that time is still passing second by second, thats the time when you can feel that you're being dragged to hell and that feeling is so horrible. This is what happened to me during my exam this time. This is one of the toughest exam I've sat for. There is one more paper to come tomoro. Cant wait for exam to be over and the girls vacation that I've been longing for. But before that, I better kao time my exam first. it really makes me think twice whether I should continue with my degree? Its just diploma and Im complaining all the way. Well, some said diploma is much tougher den degree because all the subjects are cramp together and u have to complete it in like 2 years? But no matter what, I know that degree is a must and I will be look down if I were to stop studying after diploma. And everyone knows that diploma is nothing now, at least you must have a degree in order to get a stable job. I dont want to be a street cleaner or toilet cleaner when my BFFs are a successful fashion designer, pharmacies, musician and bio engineering.

I had a really bad day today. I met with an accident. Minor to me but major to my parents. Good thing, no one was hurt in the accident except for my dad's wallet and car. I wasn't in a good mood today due to a weird dream I had this morning. I cant stop thinking bout wad I dreamt. I dreamt that my mum's going to get married with another man on this coming 8/8/2010. Seriously WTF. And I heard ppl around me saying if u dream that someone is getting married which means something bad is going to happen some said its good due to their own cultural believe But I've chose to trust in my own believe that dream is dream. Even though most of the time I'll be spending my time arguing with my mum but in heart I love her so much. I do not want something bad to happen to her, I would rather take all the bad thg that is going to happen to her. And these few days, she has been so understanding and polite like as if she try hard to understand my situation and feel from my position. Was touched by her understanding.

But I've disappoint her and my dad with that accident today. I swear I wasn't driving fast. I was at the traffic light and when it green I drove like normal and when I noticed that the gap between my car and the car in front are quite close (50m) I stepped maximum on the break but it glided as if I wasn't stepping on the break and there goes, BANG !! and another time BANG!! I duno wad happened, I couldn't remember clearly, all I know its raining and I'd stepped on the break but still I banged someone's car. And believe it or not, the car I bang (kancil) wasn't badly damaged but my car (waja) damaged like anything. I need to fix the whole front bumper, the lights, the radiator and duno wad else. It cost more den Rm5000 to fix my dad's car and also the guys car. Sigh. Din really get scolding by my parents, but from their faces, the disappointment are far beyond my imagination. My dad said, the money is not a problem but the headache and trouble I gave to him. But he said I tax him like mad. LOLS. I guess after this, I wont be able to drive around town for quite sometime. Wad a day. Memorable yet Tiring.

But let bygone be bygone and now all I want is to gain back my parents trust and be good to them. We all do not know wad will happen tomoro.

Xoxo

Thanks for talking to me and taking away my confusion..

Actually before this I was quite sure with what I really wanted just that Im a lil confused at times..

You're too good at times and I got confused whether I treat you as a fren or more than that..

But after the good talk with you Im very clear that I treat you only as a fren but I like him more than a fren..

And I will still keep waiting even its for a long time..I do not mind..

I will continue waiting until the chance come..Even if its a hundred years..

Even if I can only be with him for a while, I will be more than happy..

Unless, someone like him or someone better than him appear than I will consider of letting go..

This would be a short update as I've got no inspiration to blog lately..

Today is the first day of finals and I screwed on my first day..wtf..its so tough, this is the subject that I love the most for this semester but it killed me slowly when I was in the examination hall..I cant imagine the rest of the subjects that Im going to sit for..I've been revising the same book everyday..Sort of a big achievement I guess..FACEBOOK..Most of the people is so hooked on to Facebook these days, I've got no idea what's so great bout it but I just cant help it, I couldn't resist it..Whenever I come online the first site I'll log into is Facebook..Its like my fingers are set to type this site the first when I come online..wtf..

"Girls vacation" coming up after finals..I guess we're all looking forward into it rite girls? This would be a holiday to Genting for the 4 of us besties..We've not all meet up for like so like ages..not even Chinese New Year..and the 5 of us will never have the chance to hang out together..Why why why..you must be wandering whose the 5 of us..Here goes the 5 of us..I just hope that we'll have the chance to gather together for at least once next time..and I hope this vacation will be a really memorable and enjoyable one..girls, cant wait to see u all..<3<3

Nicole the Wai Sek (greedy) Nic

Alice the Dun (slow) Lice

Joanne the Dai Sieng (noisy) Aw

Matilda the Mong Tong (blur) Dar

Boon Mean the Dai Bi (ratarded) Mean

Hahaha..this is all the nicknames we gave each other when we were in high school..LOL..

Reali dunno wad to blog d ..

Xoxo Girls

Take care and Love u girls a lot

Mwwwaaahhhh

Unpredictable Me

The personal message ITS FADING, DIMINISHING AND DISAPPEARING..its faking actually, not fading..it was almost fading last few days but it came back again..How I wish human actually can pay for their emo feelings to go for a forever vacation and never come back again..Yes, Im talking about FEELINGSSSS...(nonsense)..Im sure I will get over it..REAL SOOOOONNNN...

I dreamt about u again last nite..and this is how the emo came back again..And why cant we just stay in the dream forever..If it is impossible for us to be together, I would rather be in the dream forever and never get up..How nice isn't?

Its April Fool, the normal Alice will be hyped up and prank everyone that could be pranked..but the abnormal Alice this year is just so different..I've got no mood to fool anyone..I only fooled a best fren of mine..and tat was also one of the reason why Im all moody again ="((( ..

Not in the good mood for blogging and Im heading to the bed soon..Nitexx..

p/s

Jojo, Nic, Dar and Mean, I miss u girls a lot <3<3

Xoxo

Charity for the dead..

As most of the chinese will know, now its the Ching Meng festival where the undead will go to the grave to do prayers for their dead family members. There are many ways to do it actually, some will bring along a big roasted pig, chicken, duck, kuih, drinks and stuff, some just bring along some fruits, kuih and drinks too pray. Some of them who had already converted to be a Christian, they will only bring a bouquet of flowers to pay their respect.

This time around, Im the only cousin who went. The rest of them are busy with their work and some are far away from home. But as usual, I will only stand and see, or if possible, sweep the dried leaves away. As usual, we will go to both my grandmother and grandfather's grave at the same day. So, we headed to grandpa's grave first and when we arrived, I felt something wrong. As we all noe, the picture of the dead will be put on the tomb stone. This time, the picture is gone and all I noe is my grandpa's grave had move further in d, but how?

I asked my uncles to check whether its the right grave..den my aunty came and said, "correct la, we came ever year wad, maybe some ppl came and took out the picture d". Well, okay of the picture is gone but how the grave can go so further in? So my uncle started to cut the wild grass and my aunty started to take out the stuff for prayers. But, I still thought that its weird because the chinese words written on the tomb stone is from the Yong Family but my grandpa's surname is Lee and so I decided to take a walk to another grave to check and see. True enough, they went to clean the wrong grave. I started laughing like a mad fella and ppl around us must be thinking that we're some maniac.

One of my uncle said, luckily the family member of the dead person did not come at the same time, or else we'll fight to clean the grave, and surely buat malu jer. And another one of my aunty told, no harm doing charity for the others ma. HAHAHA..Dumb dumb..first time ever, damn silly. Should have see the number on the tomb den buy number, manatau, I can get rich from this incident kan? sigh, wasted..LOLS..

Another joke of the day ..

Xoxo

JATUH DITIMPA TANGGA

Joke of the day

Today in college, when I was waiting for my frens to get ready for lunch..

All of a sudden feel like doing something stupid that could take my boredom away..

So coincidently, I pass by this class where I saw the gay was in there with a few girls..Well, so I decided to knock the door and distract them and make them find out who is the one who is knocking the door cause Im sure they wont think is me..cause Im not even close to them..I hardly talk to them..I just dunno why I wanna make fun of the..

So, one of my fren and I gang up play..

I knocked once and den sat on the sofa next to the class..No one came out..so I peeped into the class, they were talking like normal as tho they din hear anything..

So, knock, knock, knock again..den sat on the sofa again..this time, waited for a few seconds and they still din come and open the door..but duno why this feeling of mine was telling me that they're walking out, so me and my fren ran all the way to the staircase..

And just before I could turn and run out from that door to the staircase, my leg tersangkut at the door and i fell in front and bang my head on the wall..Ouchhhhhhhh...

As usual when something embarassing happened, I will sit on the floor and laugh..

I turn to my left, saw my lecturer and one of my fren was in big shocked for a moment den started laughing .. turn to my right, saw 6 to 7 SPM leavers was going up to the library, stopped and stared at me..turn to the back to looked into the lab, luckily, no one saw..oh how embarassed..My college was having this open day for SPM school leavers to register..or else there wont be so many students in my college normally..

Well, I was lucky enough for not banging the flower pot instead as the flower pot is squarish and made of wood, if I were to bang my head on the angle of the flower pot..habis la ..but the worse part is, after knocking twice on the classroom's door and expect the gay to come out..and even after banging my head on the wall, he did not even peep and see wad's happening.. wtf..Wasted ny effort ..its fine if I banged my head and he came out to see..at least its worth the banging.. I dont even noe why m I doing this, Im not even close to him nor the girls..I just wanna make fun of them..feeling stupid now..and they're my juniors..perhaps, its good that they din come out and see, or else, they'll be thinking wad a sakai senior..HAHAHA..I named this post JATUH DITIMPA TANGGA because memang jatuh den nampak tangga.. amat tepat sekali..

Anyhow, I still think its worth banging after all cause I kept on flashing back on the way I fell and was so busy laughing even until now, come to think of it, I can still laugh..This is one good thing as I could take away the upset feeling in me like as tho I've a short term memory lost symptom..

Even if I could stop thinking bout it for one day..Im happy enough..I would like to thank to all my great friends who never fail to make me smile in times of sorrow and also u guys have been so supportive ..heart u guys a lot..

Well, perhaps this is life. Life is aint a bed of roses rite?? But with great friends around..Who cares whether its a bed of roses or its a pale of shit?

Xoxo

=)

Life is always unexpected

Had a busy yet interesting weekend, memorable and unexpected one too..

Was busy for the whole past Friday, went to the beach in the morning to chill and McD for breakfast, went with a few course mates, basically it was to used up the free McD vouchers and also we were busy rushing up our assignments, so it is time to stretch and relax..We sat there and chit chat for a few hours until we were all sweating, expecting the sea breeze to blow and wanted to take in some cool breeze but ended up =.="..as u know the weather is steaming hot these days..

After beach, headed to the mall to get stuff for the next day’s one day trip..Went to the book fair to read some books while waiting for the others to arrived. Luckily I went, bought all four Twilight’s novels and I hope I will really make good use of it.. hope they will be passed on to the next generations as I think those are really good books that should be shared..HAHAHA..thinking too far away..Spend almost one and a half hour in the book fair .

Second day, which is a Saturday, it’s a long long day. Was hoping for a bright and sunny day as there are events going on in the noon and evening. In the noon my favorite student’s parents had invited me for their thanks giving party for their new born baby, there were 3 babies and all 3 of them are damn damn cute and the food there are awesome. Headed to church after that as it was Elizabeth, my church member’s BIG DAY (wedding).. They looked so pretty and macho in their wedding attire walking on the aisle to the alter and exchanged their wedding vows and rings. How romantic.

After the wedding, went home prepared and off to Cherating. The trip was awesome and we all had fun. Nothing much to update bout this trip, it was basically Mr Foo is leaving to KL soon, so yeah, this is sort of a farewell trip instead of farewell party. Went to Gambang Waterpark the next day with family, did not play in the waterpark as we went there kinda late so I spend time sleeping in the room as I was effing tired.

Came back and the next day college started. Have to handle those kids again, hate this job. But I love kids =)., forgot the to bring my phone out came back read a msg that pierced right into my heart, I dunno why..maybe u’re once so dear to me..and now, u’re still very dear, but too bad..u’ve already taken by someone..well, its fated as I think we are nt meant to be together, even if we were to be together, surely there’s a lot of objection from our parents and religion. And so, here, I wish u all the best ..

Im not so upset over this prob but Im still not over with that problem that I’ve been going thru yet..Im still crazy over you and yes, Im still waiting unless someone can brainwash me and make me back to normal again.. someone, please help me !!

Well, I hope that I’ll be hardworking enough to upload those photos I’ve taken previously to make a clearer picture of wad Im crapping above.. For now, I’ve no more crap to crap bout, so…..

Xoxo

=)