26/4/2010

When u're in the exam hall totally blank and having to know that time is still passing second by second, thats the time when you can feel that you're being dragged to hell and that feeling is so horrible. This is what happened to me during my exam this time. This is one of the toughest exam I've sat for. There is one more paper to come tomoro. Cant wait for exam to be over and the girls vacation that I've been longing for. But before that, I better kao time my exam first. it really makes me think twice whether I should continue with my degree? Its just diploma and Im complaining all the way. Well, some said diploma is much tougher den degree because all the subjects are cramp together and u have to complete it in like 2 years? But no matter what, I know that degree is a must and I will be look down if I were to stop studying after diploma. And everyone knows that diploma is nothing now, at least you must have a degree in order to get a stable job. I dont want to be a street cleaner or toilet cleaner when my BFFs are a successful fashion designer, pharmacies, musician and bio engineering.

I had a really bad day today. I met with an accident. Minor to me but major to my parents. Good thing, no one was hurt in the accident except for my dad's wallet and car. I wasn't in a good mood today due to a weird dream I had this morning. I cant stop thinking bout wad I dreamt. I dreamt that my mum's going to get married with another man on this coming 8/8/2010. Seriously WTF. And I heard ppl around me saying if u dream that someone is getting married which means something bad is going to happen some said its good due to their own cultural believe But I've chose to trust in my own believe that dream is dream. Even though most of the time I'll be spending my time arguing with my mum but in heart I love her so much. I do not want something bad to happen to her, I would rather take all the bad thg that is going to happen to her. And these few days, she has been so understanding and polite like as if she try hard to understand my situation and feel from my position. Was touched by her understanding.

But I've disappoint her and my dad with that accident today. I swear I wasn't driving fast. I was at the traffic light and when it green I drove like normal and when I noticed that the gap between my car and the car in front are quite close (50m) I stepped maximum on the break but it glided as if I wasn't stepping on the break and there goes, BANG !! and another time BANG!! I duno wad happened, I couldn't remember clearly, all I know its raining and I'd stepped on the break but still I banged someone's car. And believe it or not, the car I bang (kancil) wasn't badly damaged but my car (waja) damaged like anything. I need to fix the whole front bumper, the lights, the radiator and duno wad else. It cost more den Rm5000 to fix my dad's car and also the guys car. Sigh. Din really get scolding by my parents, but from their faces, the disappointment are far beyond my imagination. My dad said, the money is not a problem but the headache and trouble I gave to him. But he said I tax him like mad. LOLS. I guess after this, I wont be able to drive around town for quite sometime. Wad a day. Memorable yet Tiring.

But let bygone be bygone and now all I want is to gain back my parents trust and be good to them. We all do not know wad will happen tomoro.

Xoxo