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I Love The Nature!

Therefore, I <3>

Wonder!

Beautiful beach, pretty scenery, meaningful songs, lovely sea breeze and sound of the waves gives me the strength to think better

Are you worth the waiting??

Smile like a dumb dumb, smile like a maniac, smile like never before.

=)

Its has been more den a month since I last updated my blog. Time flies super fast when everyone is busy with their own life. So many things to update this time around but Im too lazy to rewind my mind and blog it out.

In the last post, I've mentioned that I'll be going to Kemaman for curry mee. Well, the curry mee was yummy I must say. Oh well, perhaps, I should put my trust on Chin Yang on food. I've gone there twice. Apparently, the nasi lemak is good too but I haven't try it yet. Must give it a try the next round I go.

Was kinda busy with my church Jumble Sales preparation and also my college Charity Garage Sales. My church one is over now left with my college's one. It will be held in East Coast Mall on the 26th June. We're selling second hand products like clothes, house decorations, toys and etc. Not too sure about the outcome for my church's jumble sales cause I wasn't there to help on that day due to my cousin's wedding. The wedding dinner was good, the dishes were quite special, so much to eat and the best part is we all enjoyed the time spent together. This time around most of my relatives came back except for a few of them. Looking forward for another cousin's wedding on Dec. Really hope everyone will put in their effort to be present for that dinner.

Wasn't in a good mood today!! Real bad!! How I hope to have someone to talk to but everyone is so busy with their work and Im so used to keep it to myself already. Actually life has been good to me, its just tat with my discontented attitude, I want things to be in my way, I want things that is hard to get, I want things that is impossible to be possible, I want life to be the way I prefer. Yes, I know I should be thankful.

Im looking forward into the month of August where I will be completing my diploma. Pray hard that everything will go on smoothly and NO FAIL!!! Cant wait to ciao from this college. I must say that Olympia is a good college where u have nice buddies and also cool lecturers but I want to go out and explore and try all on my own. I want to see where is my level without a lot of spoon feeding. I've just got my results for last semester. 3As 1B..But my parents dun seems to be happy bout it, they said the lecturers are not strict in marking. =.="

Am going to Cameron on the 17th to 20th. Its my church family camp. Hopefully I'll enjoy myself there staying away from the hustle bustle of the the town and also put my mind off the things that Im not supposed think..It has been so long but I still cant take my mind out of it..How long more should I stay like this? How much more time should I spend in this broken heart? I wonder.....

Love is gone and my heart is a bird,

that has lost direction mid-flight.

Blogging seems to be not so interesting for me anymore..no inspiration again + laziness..

Im on my sem break now..supposed to go to Kl and den to Genting with the girls but unfortunately Mean's Perhentian trip clashes with ours.. so we'd decided to go some other time..

Have been quite hooked up with Chin Yang and Xin Yang and their activities..We'll just agree to go to a place and there we go..example, few days ago, we agreed to go for a jog in the morning den to Hoi Yin for breakfast..ended up, we went to Pelindung for mountain climbing den breakfast, went home took a quick bath den to ECM for Iron Man2 den swimming..we were all exhausted after that..but we did not stop there..we continued to go out almost everyday..

Mountain climbing is so not my type of sports..but I was forced to go..How suffering..I could not even take a break when Im almost fainting..they thought Im just giving excuses due to my laziness..and Iron Man2 is not as good as the first one..I still prefer Ip Man..both 1 and 2..its fantastic..Donnie Yen is so man and so cool..I heart him so so much..after watching that movie, makes me feel like learning Kung Fu and today I'd read an article in the newspaper saying that this malay man has been practicing Wing Chun Kung Fu for years, this makes me thinks that I've chance to pursue this dream of mine and the best part is they're teaching it in Kuantan..What in the world?? I like Judo too but my mum doesnt let me to take part in that cause she thinks that its too dangerous..I've been asking her for permission since so long ago and now I've gave up totally in asking her..But this movie had inspired me to take up art of self- defence again..

Went for badminton this morning but we ciao half an hour earlier due to Chin Yang's stomachache den went Bak Kut Teh for breakfast..After that we thought we should go to Gambang Water Park to take a look..and so we headed home pack our stuff and there we go..nothing much to play actually, not really fun but the good part is we get to spend time together rather den staying home like a dungu..

Tomoro morning we're heading to Kemaman for Curry Mee, Chin Yang said we've no idea how nice the Curry Mee is..Im waiting and Im feeling hungry now ady..We'll be leaving about 6.45 in the morning..so, its time for bed..Oh God..Please grant me good dreams..Nitex..

Xoxo

Alice

26/4/2010

When u're in the exam hall totally blank and having to know that time is still passing second by second, thats the time when you can feel that you're being dragged to hell and that feeling is so horrible. This is what happened to me during my exam this time. This is one of the toughest exam I've sat for. There is one more paper to come tomoro. Cant wait for exam to be over and the girls vacation that I've been longing for. But before that, I better kao time my exam first. it really makes me think twice whether I should continue with my degree? Its just diploma and Im complaining all the way. Well, some said diploma is much tougher den degree because all the subjects are cramp together and u have to complete it in like 2 years? But no matter what, I know that degree is a must and I will be look down if I were to stop studying after diploma. And everyone knows that diploma is nothing now, at least you must have a degree in order to get a stable job. I dont want to be a street cleaner or toilet cleaner when my BFFs are a successful fashion designer, pharmacies, musician and bio engineering.

I had a really bad day today. I met with an accident. Minor to me but major to my parents. Good thing, no one was hurt in the accident except for my dad's wallet and car. I wasn't in a good mood today due to a weird dream I had this morning. I cant stop thinking bout wad I dreamt. I dreamt that my mum's going to get married with another man on this coming 8/8/2010. Seriously WTF. And I heard ppl around me saying if u dream that someone is getting married which means something bad is going to happen some said its good due to their own cultural believe But I've chose to trust in my own believe that dream is dream. Even though most of the time I'll be spending my time arguing with my mum but in heart I love her so much. I do not want something bad to happen to her, I would rather take all the bad thg that is going to happen to her. And these few days, she has been so understanding and polite like as if she try hard to understand my situation and feel from my position. Was touched by her understanding.

But I've disappoint her and my dad with that accident today. I swear I wasn't driving fast. I was at the traffic light and when it green I drove like normal and when I noticed that the gap between my car and the car in front are quite close (50m) I stepped maximum on the break but it glided as if I wasn't stepping on the break and there goes, BANG !! and another time BANG!! I duno wad happened, I couldn't remember clearly, all I know its raining and I'd stepped on the break but still I banged someone's car. And believe it or not, the car I bang (kancil) wasn't badly damaged but my car (waja) damaged like anything. I need to fix the whole front bumper, the lights, the radiator and duno wad else. It cost more den Rm5000 to fix my dad's car and also the guys car. Sigh. Din really get scolding by my parents, but from their faces, the disappointment are far beyond my imagination. My dad said, the money is not a problem but the headache and trouble I gave to him. But he said I tax him like mad. LOLS. I guess after this, I wont be able to drive around town for quite sometime. Wad a day. Memorable yet Tiring.

But let bygone be bygone and now all I want is to gain back my parents trust and be good to them. We all do not know wad will happen tomoro.

Xoxo

Thanks for talking to me and taking away my confusion..

Actually before this I was quite sure with what I really wanted just that Im a lil confused at times..

You're too good at times and I got confused whether I treat you as a fren or more than that..

But after the good talk with you Im very clear that I treat you only as a fren but I like him more than a fren..

And I will still keep waiting even its for a long time..I do not mind..

I will continue waiting until the chance come..Even if its a hundred years..

Even if I can only be with him for a while, I will be more than happy..

Unless, someone like him or someone better than him appear than I will consider of letting go..