I've never expected this relationship to end so soon. I knew the existence of the problems not long after we were together. But we never take the problems seriously. We never wanna talk bout it and sort things out. In conclusion, this breakup is caused by the accumulated minor problems. Problems that we never thought of or we once thought its not a problem, for example characteristic, perceptions, liking and age has became our major problems now.
Talking about the problems, I used to think we're the same until we were together. The minor problem which I think we could make a change. The first difference is I'm a night person, u're always sleeping early. Whenever I needed someone to talk to or I need someone to accompany during the night, u'll never be the one accompanying me. I need to ask someone else to be with me. And u've told me before, u hope I can share problems with u rather then sharing it with someone else. How I wish I could but we will never have the chance to do this. We can never spend time during the day because we've classes and activities to attend. We're left with the night only. I felt like we're not in a relationship, we're more to a companionship. Some minor problem like u dislike me to saying u cocky, u do not like me to say "anything" when u needed my comment, u do not like me pinching u. Those problems I've started changing it. But still break up happened.
To me, the reason two person get together is because they love and cherish each other and they wanna spend the rest of their life together with the other half, doing things together happily, laugh and cry through the hard times and happy times, calling and texting randomly to see how is the another half doing. But u're not, to u, doesn't call or text, doesn't spend much time together and doesn't have lovey-doveyly act is not because u don't love me. I somehow agree with u, but not fully, if u don't even show that little bit of care how can I feel ur love, baby? U hate texting and calling, but we've done this ever since we knew each other and all couple does the same isn't? I don't need u to call or text me every min, just a few msges a day to keep me update about ur whereabout and how things are. This is act an act of care and love already. This is all Im asking for.
U hate answering questions. But I'm a person who believed there's a reason behind everything that happened therefore I wanna know every reason behind the problems and try to solve it. Even when we were arguing when we’re about to put a stop to this relationship when u're the one who asked for it, all I'm asking for is just the reasons for the breakup but u refused to answer. Everyone is different, the thing that u think is a problems, I might not think the same. I just wanna be clear of the reasons for this breakup. I guess I have the right to know it anyway. U said I don't even know the problems occur, sometimes it’s not I do not know. It’s because I consider it as a minor problem that can be solve but to u, its major problem.
Talking about age gap. U're two years younger than me. I once thought this is a problem but u assured me that age will never be a problem in this relationship. U told me age is just a number. But now, after knowing that ur mum dislike this relationship cause I'm older, u said u're confused and don't know what to do. I remembered u asking me what if my mum doesn't like u? I told u and assured u that I will try my very best to convince her since I'm the one who's gonna be with u. I'm sure our parents are understanding and they want us to be happy. But why when I asked u what u gonna do since ur mum dislike this, u cant assure me the same way I assured u? I'm sure my mum will feel uncomfortable with the age gap as well even its only two years, but I'm sure I can convince her and eventually she will accept u.
I do not know how many more unsorted problems we're having. Im writing this not because I wanna complain about u. I just wanna remember the problems that I faced in this relationship and I hope I can try changing these problems if we have the chance to be together again or I can make sure this will not happened in my next relationship if I have one. I told u that u should also make some changes in urself so that u could improve urself too but u told me u will never have a gf again. Let’s just see. Sometimes I wonder, is my expectation too high to be fulfilled? I asked around and most of them said No. They said these are the basic necessity couples must have. To me, all these problems that we're facing now is just minor problems and I will do whatever it takes to turn this around, but u think it's major problems and there's nothing we can do about it. Therefore, u think the best way is to call it off. No matter what happened, I still think that u're always good, lovable, caring and sweet. Just the ways we conveyed and defined love are different. U might not be reading this cause maybe u didn't know I've started blogging again. But it’s alright, most importantly u’re happy with this decision that u’ve made, just give me a few months, I will be able to get over it.
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